"nobody cares" except if you've been rejected, then life has some sort of blackball effect on you?
I'm sorry but nonsense. You need to find someone to slap sense into you, you're too far down this dark hole.
You got the job to keep the wife who left anyway and apparently took the house. The job sucks. This seems like two parts of the equation that cancel one another out -- so dump the job. Work as a walmart greeter or something for a bit. go travel, backpacking, hosteling, hey, be one of those traveling beggars that I hate so much -- I bet they don't wake up every day and think about societal black marks on some imaginary scorecard. They think about bumming a ride to that badass glacier over yonder because they want to yell at it and listen to the echo.
the rut is deep, but you can walk right out and reinvent yourself. I hope you find a path to do so, even if it sucks for a bit. It sounds like it can only be better over yonder, wherever that is.
I'm sorry but nonsense. You need to find someone to slap sense into you, you're too far down this dark hole.
You got the job to keep the wife who left anyway and apparently took the house. The job sucks. This seems like two parts of the equation that cancel one another out -- so dump the job. Work as a walmart greeter or something for a bit. go travel, backpacking, hosteling, hey, be one of those traveling beggars that I hate so much -- I bet they don't wake up every day and think about societal black marks on some imaginary scorecard. They think about bumming a ride to that badass glacier over yonder because they want to yell at it and listen to the echo.
the rut is deep, but you can walk right out and reinvent yourself. I hope you find a path to do so, even if it sucks for a bit. It sounds like it can only be better over yonder, wherever that is.