I'm not worried about it, and I don't plan to give up.
Becoming an amateur art historian has greatly enriched my day-to-day life and given me much inspiration in my own creative output.
As a multi-disciplinary artist I feel called to recognize and hold important people and their creations in my memory, in order to help them live forever like they wanted.
Just acknowledge this and just enjoy what you can.
A few years ago I thought I could get through my to-read list, then I realized I couldn’t and stopped worrying about it.