Throwaway account. I'm fairly open about this, but don't really want it associated for all time with me.
About a year after my marriage split up I went to the marriage of someone close to me. During the ceremony I had severe chest pains and was pretty sure I was having a heart attack. I didn't want to disturb the ceremony (they were exchanging rings!) so I figured I'd wait 5 minutes then get up and call an ambulance.
The pain went away, and I didn't do anything about it for a while. Later I had a panic attack when at a new GF's place and had to leave.
Eventually I went to a therapist, and they pointed out these are symptoms of PTSD and trauma.
Anyway, I'm fine now. But it wasn't until I had the physical symptoms that I believed the impact of these things wasn't just something I could ignore.
Wizard here, that's totally normal. Just life giving you a little nudge to remind you you're not dead! The only way to deal with it is to grit your teeth and clench your butt.
Once you can endure that pain while remaining calm enough to hear Bateman narrate my pain is constant and sharp... in your mind, you'll be "alright".
About a year after my marriage split up I went to the marriage of someone close to me. During the ceremony I had severe chest pains and was pretty sure I was having a heart attack. I didn't want to disturb the ceremony (they were exchanging rings!) so I figured I'd wait 5 minutes then get up and call an ambulance.
The pain went away, and I didn't do anything about it for a while. Later I had a panic attack when at a new GF's place and had to leave.
Eventually I went to a therapist, and they pointed out these are symptoms of PTSD and trauma.
Anyway, I'm fine now. But it wasn't until I had the physical symptoms that I believed the impact of these things wasn't just something I could ignore.