Before this incident (I've been through a few disasters and violent incidents), I was already on my 13th antidepressant (vilazodone) which doesn't appear to be working. Also on propranolol, clonidine, atomoxetine, carbamazepine, baclofen, gabapentin, and 40 mg/day of CBD. I buy CBD isolate (pure CBD) in bulk and make my own sublingual tincture using a precisely-measured ratio of ingredients comprising:
- Organic coconut oil
- Vitamin E T50
- Grape seed / citrus extract
- CBD
in a dark glass container filled into sterile saline spray bottles for use.
If you don't do this, then you're probably either being cheated or don't know what you're taking.
Anyhow, so far this new antidepressant doesn't seem to be working so the dose is getting upped. If this doesn't work, it's back to mirtazapine and weight gain. The only other options involve anticholinergics, extrapyramidal issues, electricity, magnets, and/or brain surgery.
I also have gradually, over the past few years, developed some sort of neurological decline vaguely reminiscent of vascular, frontotemporal, or Lewy body dementia or chronic traumatic encephalopathy (I was born cyanotic over several hours because of incompetent Kaiser Permanente doctors and was hit in the head extremely hard as a teenager twice and didn't receive proper medical care).
I can barely speak, I stutter a lot, my memory is disappearing, and my level of consciousness and clarity is declining. I can't code in any language anymore and I used to work in Rust, Haskell, C, Crystal, and so on. My sleep is a mess... one or a few hours here and there at all times of the day. I use every bit of concentration to write this. If it's an incurable condition, I will go somewhere very, very remote in Montana or Wyoming and breathe nitrogen.
It sounds like you're in a bad place. Lots of us have been there. Seek help from others, please. There are people around, hopefully in your local area, who can help.
In terms of revenue globally, the top five are: AT&T, Comcast, Disney, ViacomCBS, and Fox. The are mainstream media oligopolies in most countries these days, but the beauty of the internet is that independent journalists and voices who have been shut-out and banned from the corporate-establishment fold like Ralph Nader and Chris Hedges can still find tiny soap-boxes to speak truth to power since almost no one else is doing it. Then there's people like Jimmy Dore who will never get taken seriously by the establishment because he doesn't have the wealth, pedigree, or entitled rich-dbag attitude to be let into their club.
Competing brands of hegemonic, despotic, inverted totalitarian feudal lords vying for the Iron Throne. Bezos may ultimately be the first trillionaire as Tim Cook has clearly ran out of gas and is piloting a doomed A380 dinosaur into the drink. Ultimately, I think the first trillionaire will probably be Chinese because of China's rapid and potentially-large and long-lasting ascendancy.
Ultimately, it is and always will be a powerful few who have too much against the many who have too little.
Tim Cook isn't even a billionaire.... and Bezes only has a 1/10 of a Trillion, which is still many orders of magnitude more than Cook.
If your were instead talking about the coorporations they lead, they have been trillion dollar companies for a long time. And Apple is enjoying ts best years.
Don't be led around like a slave to other people's money.
Think for yourself and f corporations.
Too many Americans falsely believe hard work, sacrifice, and personal risk will be rewarded when they are in-fact risking everything for next to nothing.
Funny this is mentioned, since 1995 I've called it Naked inverted underwater basketweaving 103B. The interdisciplinary course is Naked underwater laser rocket surgery 312. That one is right-side-up and fully-clothed, which makes a difference, I guess? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I maybe wrong but this sounds like a good recipe for groupthink bias, low-level fascism, newspeak, and weaponizing a CoC for cyber-crybully attacks and de-platforming while purporting to promote contrary ideals. Orwellian and Kafkaesque, eh? So much for classical liberalism, free association, and tolerating (not necessarily condoning or endorsing) a diversity of viewpoints. Identity politics and unspoken "correct/acceptable" beliefs come next. Sigh
Military connectors seem a stretch whereas Lemo F connectors would fit the... whatever because they come in a cornucopia of sizes, from 2 to 68 pins. 69 if you count the shield. Just chuck the male side in a rotary hammer enclosed in a stamped metal case and the user won't know the difference. They're even suitable for harsh environments.
- Organic coconut oil
- Vitamin E T50
- Grape seed / citrus extract
- CBD
in a dark glass container filled into sterile saline spray bottles for use.
If you don't do this, then you're probably either being cheated or don't know what you're taking.
Anyhow, so far this new antidepressant doesn't seem to be working so the dose is getting upped. If this doesn't work, it's back to mirtazapine and weight gain. The only other options involve anticholinergics, extrapyramidal issues, electricity, magnets, and/or brain surgery.
I also have gradually, over the past few years, developed some sort of neurological decline vaguely reminiscent of vascular, frontotemporal, or Lewy body dementia or chronic traumatic encephalopathy (I was born cyanotic over several hours because of incompetent Kaiser Permanente doctors and was hit in the head extremely hard as a teenager twice and didn't receive proper medical care).
I can barely speak, I stutter a lot, my memory is disappearing, and my level of consciousness and clarity is declining. I can't code in any language anymore and I used to work in Rust, Haskell, C, Crystal, and so on. My sleep is a mess... one or a few hours here and there at all times of the day. I use every bit of concentration to write this. If it's an incurable condition, I will go somewhere very, very remote in Montana or Wyoming and breathe nitrogen.