What has given you feelings of accomplishment or fulfilment in the past? Try not to think about it in terms of job positions or responsibilities but more generally. What aspects or activities have brought you happiness in the past? For me I genuinely get satisfaction from helping others. It can be mundane and boring or stupid but as long as I can actually make a difference in someone else's day I can turn that into satisfaction and fulfillment. Sure, developing a system or project, planning and implementing it can be very rewarding but it's so much work and I can get burnt out easily before I get there. On the other hand, changing the batteries in a user's mouse and giving them advice on how to utilize their 2nd monitor more efficiently while I'm there gives me so much more instant gratification than so many other IT tasks.
It's not perfect, and neither am I, but I find it helps me to focus on the people.
The Wii is fine on OLED, the issue is with older consoles. Anything designed for TV's before 720p was a thing are where you will run into display disparities.
I recently discovered I have aphantasia. I lack the ability to visualize anything with my mind's eye, it's just blank. As I've delved into what aphantasia is and how it affects my brain processes in general it became very apparent to me that what I learn, how I learn, and my ability to retain that learning are deeply tied to my inability to visualize and the coping mechanisms I've developed to compensate.
Visualization, just like every trait, is a spectrum. I would recommend anyone analyzing their learning methods to take the Vividness of Visual Imagery Questionnaire (available at https://aphantasia.com/vviq) and see where you fall on the spectrum. I am about as far on the aphantasia side as you can get but my wife is the opposite and is considered a hyper-visualizer. The condition was named from the visual aspects but it can effect all senses. I can't hear music or imagine what voices sound like. I can't do impressions of people, I can't draw, I can't play guitar, etc. Some people with aphantasia can though so it's not a hard and fast rule. But making those realizations about myself has lifted a burden I didn't know was there. I can sell my guitar and stop being frustrated about why lessons aren't working. I can stop trying to draw pictures that look nothing like my intentions. I can stop wondering why I have no memory of where my wife left her keys. Most importantly, I could identify my coping mechanisms and focus on improving them.
Exploring the differences between how we think and learn has been a huge help to me personally, professionally and with my relationships. Not many specifics for OP's question but I just want to share awareness of Aphantasia and help others start their own journey of self-reflection and improvement.
EDIT: I thought of one specific example of how I learn that may help. There is something about the physical aspect of doing that solidifies something into my memory. The cool part is the physical act of writing something down counts for me. I can write something down and then throw away the paper and I will usually remember it just fine. It's the physical motions that trigger my brain to form the memories.
Wow, I've always wondered if I was the only one or how to even describe it in one word. Thanks for this. I dont have much creativity because I can't imagine in my mind, I have to put it down on paper. I can't draw from my mind, can't put a tune together. But I can copy patterns well.
My wife has similar struggles. She told me that she hates dieting but every time she does atkins or keto (I don't think the specific choice matters much as long as it's healthy) her head starts to clear almost immediately. It may take a few days or a week, but she says the effects are very noticeable. At the same time she also starts jogging, biking or doing some other physical exercise daily.
It's nothing that addresses ADHD directly but it's the best thing she's found to cope and get her back on track.
I would advise some caution with ADHD meds and how you quit as well. I know it's extremely uncommon but someone close to me suffered a psychotic break directly after quitting cold turkey. The quitting may have even been an effect of the psychosis but in an abundance of caution please be mindful of your headspace and if there are any red flags, please talk to someone about it.
Our mental health is more fragile than we realize, we need to talk about it so we can all deal with these issues more effectively.
There's a lot of great advice here and I'm glad you reached out. Keep it up - you are not alone friend.
It sounds similar to my sibling - middle-aged, professional, homeowner, married, child. All signs pointed to a successful normal life. Psychosis out of nowhere (from our perspective at least) and was missing for almost 2 years. Living on the streets, fighting mental battles no one else can understand. Back now but the PTSD is strong. So much shame, grief, pain... they can barely function.
Thank you for sharing your story. I think stories like yours are probably much more common than any of us realize. If we allow the stigma to hold us back from talking about things like this openly, we will never make progress.
It's not perfect, and neither am I, but I find it helps me to focus on the people.